MY BODY IS A WORK IN PROGRESS. 

IT IS AS BEAUTIFUL TODAY AS IT WAS YESTERDAY, AND AS IT WILL BE TOMORROW.

I'm Back!

Hello!

I realized today that there really is no point in retiring this blog until I have really become who I want to be, right? What kind of weight loss blog would it be if you never got to see the end result?

So I'm back.

My weight is back up to 200 lbs, not because the HCG diet failed, but because I have blatantly gone back to my old lifestyle. I'm done with it! I miss what it felt like to be strong and for my body to feel clean and free of the automatic bloat that crappy food gives you.

I plan to finish this up and get down to 160 lbs the old-fashioned way, with a lot of work and habit changes. I want to change my lifestyle this time, not just lose a bunch of weight as fast as possible.

I started a video log of how far I've come, what I look like now, and what I plan to change in the next couple weeks.



Thanks for sticking with me and I'll update again soon!

Day 28 and 29

I'm still going strong! And still losing. I weighed in at 198.6 this morning. It's about much more than the weight, though. It's about the fact that I can see and feel a major difference in my body. I feel stronger and leaner and I look MUCH better in my clothes. Speaking of my clothes, I can fit into almost every pair of pants I own now. It feels incredible. It's like going shopping in my closet.

I am still taking the drops, but it's more like an experiment at this point. I am eating about 1,500 calories a day now and still losing. I'm considering just sort of weaning myself off of the HCG alternative drops (keep in mind I am not taking true HCG drops, and I'm sure my case is not typical).

I've decided to take them until the bottle runs out. There is about 1/4 of it left. We'll see what happens.

In other news, I discovered the most fun exercise ever. I've caught it. Zumba fever. I am playing it on the Wii right now and it is so much fun I don't even realize I'm exercising. I seriously doubt I am any good. I probably look like an awkward dancing bear or something, but it's still awesome. I just don't do it in front of anyone.

I feel so much better and so much more me now that I am eating more food and exercising. Seriously.

Day 22 and 23

Oh. Em. Gee. So, I was feeling really bummed out for pretty much the last few days and on a whim I went and tried on some pants I have. As I sit here typing, I am wearing... wait for it.... 13's! That may not seem like a big deal to some of you out there, but to a girl who was squeezing into 18's two and a half months ago, 13's feel like skinny jeans.

I weigh 204 today and I don't really care. I feel amazing.




I'm also quite pleased because I ate popcorn last night and still managed to lose almost half a pound.

Here's the deal. The longer I'm on this diet the more I'm realizing it may not matter. That although I'd love to weigh 170 and be able to wear a bikini and blah, blah, blah, I am gorgeous right now. At 204 pounds.

I always have been.

It's A New Day! (Day 15)

Today I will be positive. Today I will love and celebrate who I am right now, and I will allow myself to be excited about my progress without looking to what I haven't accomplished yet.

Here are the facts: I weigh 206.6 today. That is easily the lowest I have weighed in over 2 years. My clothes are starting to fit better, and my 18's and 17's are falling off. My shirts are looser. My love handles are disappearing, and my face is starting to look like my normal, lovely face again.

I weigh the same right now that I weighed when I started dating my husband 6 years ago. He couldn't take his eyes off me then, and there are still times when he can't. I have worked hard. I have lost 32 pounds since I started this whole weight loss thing 2 months ago. That is an amazing loss. I am curvy and earthy and beautiful. I deserve to love myself.

I have decided to put a limit on this diet. I'm not going to quit, I don't believe I should. Before this point, though, I had not set the amount of time I wanted to do the hcg protocol. My goal for this round is 195 pounds or 30 days. That's it. I already feel better with an end in sight.

I am going to focus more on doing the protocol completely correctly. For example, this morning I didn't have my boiled egg I normally have. I know from my experiences so far that if I follow the diet and get plenty of sleep, I can lose this last 11 pounds or so quite quickly.

I am so excited about going back to exercising as much as I want and eating my healthy dose of calories. I want to try Zumba and I want to ride my bike more. I miss sweating. Ha! It's so funny how your perception changes.

I also want to write about other topics than my weight. I have made so many positive changes this year for myself and I've come up with so many recipes and tricks to share with you. Soon, I will. I think it will be good for me to pull away from focusing on that stupid number on the scale and write about other things.

Today has been a wonderful day so far! I feel so much better.